I've been trying to use up some of my fabric scraps. I've been making block after block after block. As I was sewing a block the other night it occurred to me that it's not working anymore.
It's not that the scraps aren't going together properly, it's not that I can't keep a quarter inch seam, and it's not that I don't like what I'm creating.
It's that sewing isn't taking my mind off the pain like it used to. On Day 107 I had said, The only way I know to make it through each day is to try and keep myself busy with writing, taking pictures, and sewing and quilting for others.
It's absolutely true. I wouldn't have gotten where I am now without those things, but...
It's getting harder. Harder to keep my mind off the pain. I don't know if the pain has become greater, making it harder to keep my mind focused or if it is something else. One of the reasons I enjoyed getting into the sewing so much is because it kept me from thinking about how bad I was feeling. It was a relaxing process, yet a process where I could focus on something else besides what I was feeling. But now, not so much. The temptation to take a pain pill is returning. A pain pill would provide relief, albeit temporary.
I'm pursuing my own form of temporary relief today. I'm taking a break from sewing for the first time in a while and heading down on the casino bus. Maybe a little getaway for the day will make me feel better. (I doubt it, but you never know!)
It does make me feel better having two more kids' quilts finished up before I head out, though.
Aw Deb, I'm so sorry you are hurting so much. I sure wish I could be nearer, and come and do something fun with you to take your mind off of things. It would be ever so great to have a sewing buddy. I would love to have someone to sew with.. but alas, I am here alone too. I am currently at a stopping point in my sewing due to thumb pain that popped up out of no where. I am hoping that it will go away so I can get back to the stitching that I love so much. I think that I just overworked it, and I just need to let it rest, but I cannot imagine not being able to do that which I love so dearly. Hope you are feeling better again soon.
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear you are in so much pain. All of us out here have you in our thoughts and prayers. Hope you win some money at the casino! I love the pink quilt! - Lisa
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